*the most beautiful things..

soo.. i feel like lately i have had a little bit of a bad attitude about where i am in life.. i think the biggest thing is rite after high school i thought i had it all figured out.. i jumped around between jobs and made enough to get me what i wanted right then and there and didn't think i needed school and now everyone my age it seems like is graduating and i am JUST starting school.. i think i've felt a little bad about that.. and that i used to drive a nice car and have money to do my hair whenever and go tanning and all that stuff.. and now i truly know what it means to be a broke college student.. and all i ever would think about is how i am just ready to be done with this phase of my life and be able to 'start' my life.. and i said that out loud and then it hit me.. this IS my life.. it's started it has been for almost 23 years now.. and it all goes by so fast.. i just need to soak it all in.. and embrace and love each new phase because this IS my life.. and sometime ((maybe soon maybe in like 15 years.. who even knows?!)) i will be married and have a family to take care of & right now it's just me that i have to worry about.. so i am ready to be selfish and soak it up and focus on me.. and getting thru school and loving it!!.. the whole phase!!.. and when the next one comes i really i hope i remember this and don't get sick of the little times anymore and just love where i am cuz this moment IS my life..

hope everyone had a good labor day!!.. i had way to much fun!!..

ps.. HAPPY birthday des!!..

*<3

*WAiT i'm not ready for you to leave yet..

HOLY MOLY!!.. summer is almost over!!.. what happened?!

i don't think i'm ready yet.. even tho i did have a VERY amazing summer!!.. it was seriously soo fun.. I LOVED texas and hope i can move back someday.. most of my days ((there and back here in minnesota)) have been spent at the pool.. i LOVE laying out in the sun and playing in the water.. although san antonio was better at the pool ((oh and night was the best to sneak in at like midnight and go swimming and it was still hot out.. i loved it)) it's still fun here especially playin with my adorable little nephew brecken play in the water.. he grows up so much everyday it seems like.. it blows me away!!..

so now i'm just trying to get ready for school to start.. i can't believe i start in 6 DAYS!!.. it's super stressful to think about.. but also kinda exciting.. and i started working at caribou again.. i really liked working there a few years ago and figured it would be a pretty easy stress free job.. i interviewed with anytime and i totally wanted the job and they wanted me but the schedules would not work for either of us.. so she said she'd keep my resume and call me if something opened up that had a better schedule for me.. but i'm really liking working at caribou.. for those who don't know what it is it's like starbucks only waaaayyy better.. it's more of midwest thing i think.. and they have the BEST smoothies EVER!!..

oh one more thing i just had to post cuz it makes me laugh ohhh so hard.. okay so over the past year sense i moved out to provo i dated alot of different guys and had 3 actual boyfriends.. anways you know the movie good luck chuck?! don't watch it!! it's suppperrr naughty.. not what i expected anyways.. thats not the point anyways it's about this guy that sleeps with a girl and then she marrys the next guy she dates.. i'm that guy!!!.. only girl!! ((and i don't sleep with them.. just date them..)) hahaha so those 3 boyfriends i had.. they all have gotten engaged in the past like month!!!.. hahahahaha isn't that nuts?!.. sooo if you know of a guy that wants to get married.. just send him my way.. i personally won't marry him.. i just have to date him.. then he will marry the next girl he dates... C R A Z Y!!..

*Vote!!..

http://www.cutestdogcompetition.com/vote.cfm?h=ADE534E12A48CFA0373754602D05EF4A

heeeyy.. my friend mandy entered her adorable dog lexi ((she really is the cutest sweetest dog ever)) into this cutest dog competition and asked for help!!.. so if you can go to the link above and vote for her that would be awesome!!..

THANKS!!

*too cool for school..

HOLY-FREAKiN-KAMOLY!!..
soo.. i hate school already.. i know remember why i never went..
so i go in for my test last week that way i get placed in the right english and math classes ect.. it took for freakin ever!!.. annddd.. i'm in like 6th grade everything!!.. ((not for real)) but pretty close.. anyways so i go to register today and we are there for like 3 hours all i had eaten was a clemetine ((yup the miniture orange which is like like having 2 acutal orange slices)) and i was starving.. and then it's like an hour and a half of lecture about all this junk you need to know about going to school.. and then 2 hours of registering for classes.. want to know why it took 2 hours?!.. cuz it's sooo freakin hard!!.. when we got there ((i went with my brother kole cuz he's goin to the same school i am)) there were all these people there with thier parents and jokingly i turn to kole and am like.. oh why didn't we bring our mom with us.. and he said it was because we were too old for that.. well half way thru trying to register i'm practically in tears and wishing my mom was there!!.. i had to call her for moral support.. i think the biggest problem was that i am trying to get this job at anytime fitness ((i have a 2nd interview tomorrow)) and i really really want it buttt the hours are 11-7 so i was trying to get all my classes in before 11 and she said they could work with me but all the classes i needed to take on tues and thurs were in the afternoon.. so i was like i don't even care about the job!!.. ((mostly cuz i got hired at caribou.. it's like starbucks only a million times better)) but i called the lady at anytime and told her i could only get afternoon classes tues and thurs and she told me to still come in to the interview and she'll talk to the head guy and see if they can work around it.. sooo the interveiw is tomorrow and hopefully i get it!!.. it'll be ALOT of work ((way more the caribou)) buttt.. i would be the main manager of the woodbury anytime fitness so she said it would pretty much be MY gym.. i would completely in charge of everything there.. sooooo.. hopefully the whole scheduling thing works.. we'll see!!..

*WHOA.. HERE i AM!!..

UPDATE::

so.. i never-ever-ever wanted to go to school.. but when i was starting to figure out what i wanted to do at the end of the summer ever single job i could find paid like $10 an hour.. unless you had a degree.. soo.. after lots of pondering i decided to head back to school.. i looked at going down in texas & for out of state tuition and to get residency and to pay rent and have a job and blah blah blah it started to turn into me finishing school when i was abour 39 1/2 so not quite 40 but pretty freakin close.. sooo i decided to move back up to minnesota with the family and go to school there ((where it would be like.. close to a million dollars cheaper)) so i left san antonio.. ((which by the way was sooo super hard!!)) and went up to dallas for a few days.. i had a friend from minnesota that had flown in for work and so we went to 6 flags and stuff it was fun then i hung out with a friend that i hadn't seen for about 3 years and was living there.. then my old roommate from provo had just moved there so i stayed with her for a few days!!.. mucho fun!!..

then i left and drove up thru oklahoma and kansas and missouri and iowa to des moinse where i stayed with a friend from utah that was working there for the summer.. and we went out to this local bar/ dance place.. it was like the funnest thing i had ever done.. hahaha it was the definition of a HICKTOWN joint it was called uncle bucks.. there was lots of entertainment there.. then i came back up to minnesota.. it's been fun hangin with the family again and seeing my cute little nephew ((who by the way wasn't even walkin last time i saw him and now he's running around everywhere!!)) but i miss texas alot alot!!.. i am ready to move back!!.. but i guess just 2 more years and i can!!.. i'm working on getting my associates in fine art and then as of right now i want to transfer to a 4 year college and get a bachlors in advertising.. we'll see tho!!.. hope everyone is doin good!!..

<3 LiFE!!..